Wednesday, April 4, 2007

Day 2 of The Trail




*Sigh* Day 2 and I still have no idea of what the eventual outcome will be. I fitted in really well with the girls and actually got to work with REAL blood! How cool is THAT???? But at the end of the day - I have no idea if I have the job or not. I still have to go in tomorrow and I just hope and pray I am not wasting my time. Actually I hope I am not also wasting their time. Sometimes I wonder if I am a little bit too insular and if I don't enjoy being by myself just a teeny bit to much. I have tried not to talk to much and just listen to everything I am told. I have tried really hard not to be loud and noisy like I can be. Actually that's one of the few things that upsets me. Sometimes I get really excited about something and OH winces as I apparently get to loud and it hurts his ears he says. Makes me really sad and unhappy and WHY TF IS THIS POST BECOMING LIKE A BLOODY BIG SOOKARAMA??????? Sheesh Trace snap out of it!!!! Ok slap to head and back on track .......speaking of which ...I am still counting points and tracking and all the rest and actually have worn two shirts to my trial that I couldnt get my fat puppy boobs into and now I can. But overall I dont feel like I have lost a thing. So today I went for my normal walk but I have added a running section in which I run for 200 steps. Bloody near killed me I can tell you but I had on my sports bra and the puppy's didn't jump around like they were in a sugar bag so that was a definite bonus.
Cracked a bottle of the Boys Dolcetta &Syrah last night and managed to confine myself to one glass.....because OH polished off the rest!!!!!!
*Sigh* again. Sorry if i am not my usual perky self today but feel really flat and useless. I have been constantly thinking about food and that really shits me as Sensible Tracy knows it is simply because of the upheaval that has been going on around me lately and NONSensible Tracy tries to win the battle and tell me it is because I am hungry....which I am not. I may as well also be honest here - my BF has been on Tony F and she is dropping the weight week after week and I am happy for her yes but absolutely pea green with envy. I am working so hard and nothing is happening. Anyway as I am totally sick of feeling sorry for myself I have decided to try Core for a week and see what happens. Apparently you have to do it week by week so I will face the weigh in on Monday and switch after I have weighed in. Be interesting to see what happens. Oh and STILL nothing on the TTOM situation except my tummy feels like someone has parked rocks in it.
Till next time my darlings
Ciao
Txxxx

3 comments:

Calamity said...

Vino Bud, you worked with blood?!!! I am seriously impressed and feeling queazy hee hee.

Let me know what you think of core, I was going to give it a go too. It's a bit restrictive but maybe that's what I need. Good on you mate for sticking to it and YOU DID A RUN. That's the Trace I know, gutsy and enthusiastic, you go and kick butt mate.

I'm off now to go and buy some of that new super duper vino mmmmmm sounds delightful.

luv
xoxoxox

:: ♥ MiSs BuTTeRfLy ♥ :: said...

You are such a champion!!
I'm so proud of you!!

I can't wait to have a nice long yarn with the 3 amigos soon...seems like so long has passed already!!
Take care,
Much love
x

♥Kiwi♥ said...

Hey Tracy thanks for visiting my blog and yes you are more than welcome to add me and I will do the same with you :)

Everything happens for a reason and it this job works out or doesn't I know it will be for the best... Sorry to hear you are feeling flat, I have been the same, maybe something to do with the universe or moon affecting all us crazy dieting ladies hehehe

Hey I wouldn't feel envious of your friend on Tony F - I have tried it (well what haven't I tried) and it doesn't teach you anything, just that you have shakes for breaky and lunch, I think WW is much better as teaches you good habits and then maintenance :)

Take care and chin up, you will get there xxx

Luv mE